Sadly in this post there will be no pictures because there just weren't many picture worthy moments I think. As stated in the title this week really was a doozy and not necessarily the good kind. I defnitely don't want to use this blog as any sort of venting at all, but when thinking about this week I thought maybe I do want to write about it so maybe one day when I read this, i'll laugh instead of sigh.
Well to begin, this week is test week for Bobby which means I don't see him for more than an hour a day because he is usually studying so much. This week also happened to be a week where I was totally overwhelmed with school myself having loads of studying to do to test out of a politics class on saturday. The amount of studying needed for this class is about 6 hours a day, so fun I know. Then of course we were asked to speak in our church this coming sunday. So on monday everything was fine I was managing my studying and Kate and everything else in my life making this week stressful but managable. Then monday night around midnight, Kate got a fever of 101.5 and a horrible cough that all of the sudden appeared (later discovered as possible RSV that she got playing with her cousin who has it) But everything was still fine, I gave her medicine and off to bed she went. Kate had kind of a rough night but not too bad. Tuesday I noticed kate getting steadily worse and more cranky..to the point that she would cry if I put her down, she would cry if I picked her up, she would cry if I left the room..pretty much everything made her unhappy and the only thing that did make her was nursing so that was basically all I did.
Tuesday night was the first of the loooong nights. Kate was up every 45 minutes just crying and obviously miserable. So by 3 am after geting up who knows how many times I just gave up and brought my pillow and a blanket to Kates room with me. This time I just picked her up and laid her on my chest and we just rocked in the chair..she passed right out. So that is where she slept all night, and I being quite uncomfortable because my chair doesn't go back all the way was awake just rocking and holding her and rubbing her back everytime she had a coughing fit. So yes I was up from 2am on.. all day wednesday. But I have to say, I haven't had snuggle time like that with Kate since she was a newborn so part of me didn't mind it, it was kind of nice to feel needed like that. But the price for it was utter exhaustion the next day while my sick baby remained clingy and I still had studying and a talk to write.
Wednesday and Thursday night were that same story, me sitting in the rocking chair holding my sick baby girl while she coughed all night. Then during the day it was a fountain of snot, oh the joys of parenthood at times! But really I shouldn't be complaining, i'm not the one up all night with fountains of snot and a cough that leaves me gasping for air (ugh I HATE to hear that sound). Though the sleepless nights I still had to muster up the energy to study for my school during the day and try to think about this talk. Not to mention Kate wouldn't let me do anything without her being right by me making it quite difficult to do anything but hold her wherever I went. I never realized before having a child how exhausting it is to have a sick baby. It's incredible how that becomes almost everything you think about and do during the day. By thursday night it was to the point where I felt like this was the longest day being that I hadn't gone to sleep really at all since Monday night and my test and talk were still looming. I just hate that sometimes, when something you dread is just there, on your mind every minute of the day, this dreadful moment that you know is coming and yet can do nothing about is always right there in the back of your mind.
All this week I kept thinking, "it's ok, once Bobby takes his test on friday and gets 90% he can help out a little bit this weekend and I can have time to study and take a break/nap" Well today came, and the lack of sleep got to my poor husband even though I tried to shield him from the long nights, he was still exhausted too and missed his 90% goal by just a few points.. So he has to re-take his test on monday. Which means this week isn't over.. and I still get to figure out how in the world i'm going to juggle even less time with Bobby, who will be shut away from all civilization to study more, and my test, my talk and my still sick but slowly getting better baby girl and all of this with maybe 6 hours of sleep from the past 3 days, it is truly amazing to me how the body can still function without sleep, maybe those years of being an insomniac have paid off and my body's just getting used to it again..who knows! But really, I know this weekend will work out just fine, and Bobby will do great on his test on Monday, but this week was definitely a doozy and I am definitely exhausted and ready for nap. The good thing about this week though like I said, I have to admit I loved just holding my baby all night while she was sick, you see, she is quite the daddys girl and usually wants him all of the time, but this time she just wanted me. Just that fact made everything else OK, and I have to say i'll kind of miss that time just siliently rocking with her, even with the lack of sleep because for once, she was a mommas girl. So tonight while everyone else is sleeping I will be holding my baby girl while she sleeps (and coughs) and i'm really ok with that.
Becuase of the lack of pictures for this post, I thought I would put a video up that has made me smile this week even though i've been stressed. Kates LOVES her Oli. You'll have to pause the music to see why it makes me smile. :)
Chelsea and Shane 
